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hmm..i thought i'm gonna share another peace of mind..but i haven't finish it...it's quite long...so maybe a little bit of classical stuff to writte...
what is it so classic about poem? well maybe it's been there since before war? i dunno...people still doing it until now...it's an expression of someone's thoughts & feelings and sumetimes others just can't understand it..
it's too classical with the unknown vocabs and structures...
but who cares anyway? most of the time they just writte it down without a structure or what ever...so called "rime"...

niweizzz... a short one...

there's a little girl opening her window
she didn't see anything clear that day...
it was raining...was it?
or was it foggy?
no! it wasn't foggy...it was bright
but she couldn't see clear who was there...
there was a shadow of a man walking towards her
she's not afraid of it..she just confuse who might want to visit her today?
is he going to visit for a short while or a long time?
how short is short and how long is long?
then...
she drop a tear..
it wasn't a sad tear nor happiness...
it was...
she do not know...
she waited...waited...and waited...
he's still not here yet (the lil girl said to herself)
so she prayed...

what happened next? i also don't know... the Father above haven't answer the prayer...what was the prayer? only that lil girl know...who's the girl anyway? I'm not sure...hehehehe...
it's just me and my thoughts ;p

excitement! bad or gOoD? ... Part 2

Again i say to u all...
Every single thing in our life Happened for God's reason and purposes, that is to make us a better person according to His standard...

I did cry...well i admit it... I am a sensitive girl when it comes to relationship..ANY..not only boy&girlfriend relationship but also friends and family... Those who know me very well, am sure u all agree...

I believe what we've discussed for the pass few days has made us a different person with another one level up... It hurt us along the way, but it is a process of maturity both as a human being and as sons and daughters of Christ...
My friends problem was finally settle...They manage to understand each other and try to deal with each other weaknesess... As for me and my other friends... We learn to communicate better and to get rid of the gap and to always pay attention to stuff around us...

I guess excitement isn't always good all the times...we really need to control ourselves and ask for wisdom.. I really cannot do it alone...not without God... I admitted sometimes i feel so wise but then i know it means nothing without God's wisdom, at the end it will hurt other people...

the greates strength in all life circumtances is to know that u are loved...
Galtians 2: 20 { Live by faith in the Son of God who loves u and gave His life for you}

you'll be well my friend.... you'll be well in God... :)

excitement! bad or goOd? ... Part 1

hmm... i can say that these pass few days i've been confused by situation around me...
well, just say my friends...
it's been a reflection week for all of us...
arguments here and there...dislike and disspointment every where...
we can't really tell what was the trigger and when did it starts...
all we know is that, suddenly things get worse

hmmm...like i've said before...things really happened for God's reason...
we started to look into ourselves and ask where did we go wrong?
what did we do lately?
was it bad?
did it hurt other people?
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so on and on, until we reach to an end...it's time for us to talk and make things right
Why did i give title excitement, bad or good?
Well..in my case this semester I was more excited about God than last year..there are so many blessings i've experienced and i really want to share it with my closest new born Christian friends and non, of course...
Yet, my excitement mislead them and myself...
At one point, i didn't really show love when i deliver the messages...another point i love them too much that i don't wanna lose them and let them do stuff that i know it wont do them any good...

what i mean is that things that i've experienced in my past is now experienced by my friends and before they face the same consequences as i do, i prefer to be strick and firm...(r u people know what i mean?)

Well niweizz... This is what I've learn:
No matter how much you want your friend to get saved or to have a personal experience with God like you do, you just CAN'T do it with your own strength! I found that, it is true they are our closest friend and we love them... it's true that we need to tell them about the Truth and the Life... But we can't, we CAN'T rush them and make them understand what we understand... We can't be fully responsible of their personal relationship with God because it's between them and God...What we can do is never stop praying for them and encourage them. I also learn that i really really really need to control my emotion...

It was sad when i know this..Because they took me wrong...Now they are affraid with me... They said they don't understand me anymore...They say i was a different person...It really break my heart...And the funny thing is, they said I needed to change my face expression, which I really can't see how is my expression when i was talking...

someone is in love with... Part 2

I learn someone is in love with you and took a crazy risk for you...
was beaten and disgrace...
I doubt it, until I saw the proof...

on the Cross at Calvary..
Blessed Easter day

-unknown author-


this short msg came to me after church and it came from a non chirstian friend...
It is true...
someone is so much in love with me...
with you...

I was overwhelmed...
This love, how can it be that a sinner like me deserve such love and grace
That time I really want to tell the world that I found a love that turn my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see...

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls"
-mathew 11: 28-

someone is in love...Part 1

Sunday easter...

we had an easter play since friday and praise be to God five people accepted Christ ...
I took part in the play, i was singing a song called "grace" that was sang originally by U2...
(it was a beautiful song)
There were another song called "Why", sang by Nichole Norderman...
It was sang when Jesus was crucified...
It was a total great song...
The whole play itself...wow...it was touching...
Especially on Sunday...
I can sense the presence of God was in that place...
I was in tears when we almost reach to the end...
we close it with five people sharing their true story of how Jesus changed their lives and their family...

A man called Bension was crying as he shared his true story about him being a Christian for 8 years...
but in his journey, he was back sliding for 3 - 4 years...
He almost ended his life...
Miraculously... something took place, where he had no choice but to come back to God...
he took that step of faith of being a child of God
even though he might lose his parent and his family...
Amazingly...
God work through in that situation..
His parent started to tolarate his choice
They even woke him up if he couldn't wake up to church...
until they allowed him to be baptized...
Beyond his thought
God touch his mom's heart to go with him to church for his baptizm day...
That day...
it was easter day...
And a new day has just begun for his family...
His mom accepted Christ
Now they are alive in God...

We were all in tears after listening to his true story..
We knew and was encourged to have another level of faith that no matter how the circumtances are...
Jesus always make a way where there seems to be no way and He is always faitful..

After the service end,
a Lady came to one of my leaders...
and this what she said...
"I've been back sliding for 7 years and after I heard bension's testimonies, I knew this is the time for me to return to where I belong...to Jesus"


nb: don't be affraid to tell ur past, even though it was horrible...because you know how God has turn that around for His glory...you'll never know how people will be changed because of your testimonies...God is good and His always faithful...

see ya

i've just realize sumething...
it's been a looooooong time for since the last time i post...
busy.. i guess...
lazyness was part of it...hehehe
well i've decided to type again b'coz a dear friend of mine inspired me so much...

i thought instead of only writting poems...maybe i should start sharing my journey wiv God in a story
and maybe, if melissa dun mind, i would like to ask her favor to change my layout...hehehe
Not sure how it will look like but for sure it will look bright and clean :)...

eniweiiiiiiizzzzzz great to be back typing2 again hehehe...
got to cabs...feel so sleepy..yet it's lunch break ....

brand nu life

I just finish reading a friend's blog...
it was encouraging and i agree wiv her how life without God is nothing...
life without hope is the same as dead
life wihtout dream is hopeless
life without faith & God's promisess is painfull
i can't imagine myself being alive without Him...
through out my live, i can proudly say...
Thank God i am alive, well and blessed...
no matter what the situation was...
bad, worse, good & best...He is the reason i survived this uncertain life

He changes my life around
He make me whole and brand new every day

It is true hope simply mean believing something that is unseen
unseen promisses..but knowing it will be done sooner or later
It was and is always a perfect time
Believing is to put your 100% trust to a power that controls both Heaven and earth
...He's Jesus...

I hope any of u who had the chance to read this blog...
or this particular post...
just wanted all of u to know...that there is hope for u
you'll find joy and peace from this Man called Jesus
it's not too late to know Him or to turn back to Him...

you won't loose anything...
but i can promise u that you will gain much...
so much more...
more than you'll ever know, expect and dream...